“Hindi na ako masaya, break na tayo.”
Inis na inis ako sa ganyang breakup line. Ang problema kasi sa ibang relasyon e porket may isang araw lang na hindi masaya sumusuko na. O kahit ilang araw pa yan. Eh anoba? Naglolokohan ba tayo dito? Puro saya lang ba hanap nyo? Kasi kung ganun, ang makasarili nyo. Nasa relasyon lang kayo dahil gusto nyong kiligin, pag wala na, breakup na. Tae. :)
Pumasok kayo sa relasyon dahil mahal nyo yung tao at mamahalin at sasamahan nyo through the good times and even more through the bad. Normal yung mga hindi pagkakaintindihan. Eh ano kung may lumipas na isang araw na hindi kayo masaya? Ipagpapalit mo ba at isusuko ang habambuhay sanang mas madaming pagkakataon na maging masaya kayong dalawa? Magkasama, masaya, nagmamahalan.
Hindi naman puro saya lang kasi lahat e. Kung hindi ka na masaya, dalawa lang yan eh: you’ve fallen out of love kaya nawala na yung spark, kaya hindi ka na masaya OR may masyadong mahirap kayong pinagdadaanan para masabi mong “hindi ka na masaya”. Kung alin man sa dalawang yan, SAY SO. And not, “okay hindi na ako masaya break na tayo.” Pero hindi ko din alam kung bakit iba ang dating sa ‘kin nun. Kasi parang, mahal mo lang sya nung masaya pa kayo.
I kept wishing I was born so much healthier than I am now. This might sound an over reaction, I don’t care, really. But seriously I’ve been ill since forever and kept having different illnesses simultaneously like what the fuck I seem not to be living a normal life anymore. I’m physically normal, you could say that, but everything inside me just seem to be a mess now.
I was once that suicidal girl and now guess what? I’m afraid of death now. I’m afraid to die young. I’m afraid of being deprived of what’s in store for me in the future. I wanna live long and be happy and free and fulfilled.
“Tonight is just like any other night: Up late, missing my boyfriend, thinking about our future together, wondering if he is thinking about me too. I have never wanted anything as bad as wanting to spend the rest of my life with him. I didn’t know it was even possible to love someone as much as I love this man. Every single part of my body is restless and alive. I just want to scream “I love Elburt” at the top of my lungs, to the entire world.”
Idk I love riding roller coasters. The mixed emotions while on the line. The excitement and nervous feeling while locking the seat belts. The wind against your face. The tight grips while it’s slowly going up and then rapidly goes all the way down. The feeling when it turns your world upside down for a moment. The thrill of freely shouting everything out without caring about anything else cause you know yourself that you’re having so much fun. It’s these feelings which makes the ride worthwhile. ;)
- Babe: Babe, may 100 ako. *smiles*
- Ako: Eh? Saan galing?
- Babe: Bigay ng mama...
- Ako: Ohhh? Naks naman! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
- Babe: ...pambayad ko daw ng tuition. :)
- Ako: -___________-
I would often get to these times when I can’t control myself and my feelings anymore. I explode so carelessly and become the most immature that I could be. I’m sorry for becoming the person you wouldn’t wanna and wouldn’t wish to be with. I’m afraid sooner or later you’d realize that.
I’m sorry. I always mess things up, mess your head, mess YOU up. I’m sorry.
I love you.