Posting is unnecessary but keeping this to myself would just make me wanna explode in here. :”>
Have you ever felt so small that you even think you don’t deserve anything good at all?
Have you ever randomly think things out, wondering what things could’ve been today if only you have done something you weren’t able to do, or have chosen not to do something that you actually did before?
Have you ever felt so sick of yourself for not being the kind of person you want yourself to be?
Have you ever felt so insecure of all the other people having things come out their way without actually putting so much effort on it?
Sucks to be me. :)
Shit. Naiinlove lang ako ng paulit ulit.
Ayun, kanina kasi tumambay kami sa parang garden/park malapit samin. Usap usap, magkatabi kami habang magkayakap. Tapos sabi nya gusto nyang humiga sa lap ko. Edi ayun, usap usap ulit, kulitan, etc. Tapos minasahe ko yung ulo nya. :)) Hindi ko naman sinasadya talaga pero nakikiliti ko ata sya kasi nahahawakan ng kamay ko yung tenga at leeg nya. Edi tawa sya ng tawa :)) hahahaha. Ang kyut kyut *________* hahaha :”> Tapos nung tinatry ko na syang hawakan ulit biglang natatawa na naman kasi parang naging sensitive na sya. Konting hawak feeling nya makikiliti na sya. Lol. :))))
Eh basta. Ang pangit kong magkwento. Haha! Basta kinilig lang ako at naiinlove lalo, paulit ulit kong naaalala e :’) Oh butterflies.
I personally believe that feeling jealous DOESN’T ALWAYS necessarily and automatically mean that you DON’T trust your partner. It depends, ‘cause people get jealous for various reasons. She might just be envious of those people who get to talk to you and see you everyday, people who get to see you more often than she does, She might just be feeling insecure of her own self, ‘cause she thinks you’re surrounded with a lot of girls prettier and better than her. She might just be too scared someone might make you happier than she does. She might just be too selfish for she wants your full attention, and your eyes only on her.
Now before getting mad at her being so jealous over the littlest of things, try to know her reasons. She doesn’t even want to feel that way. She hates herself when she gets jealous, ‘cause she knows she doesn’t need to be. But still, she is and she can’t help it. She tries everything she can to control and ignore what she’s feeling. But sometimes she just can’t.
Sometimes you guys just have to understand. She’s jealous because she loves you.
I wanna leave Barcelona. Study at some international school in an English country. Get a dorm. Be independent. Be a medical student. Even if achieving that means I have to work at the same time, I would. Be financially stable. And live a good life.
Big dreams, eh?
But how do I start? :|